I guess the honeymoon's stage almost over. Day by day, we feel the relationship's starting to go through some difficulties. We fight over things we can't change for each other, and argue about our different views in life and relationship. Of course, we've seen this coming. During the early stage of our relationship, we've talked about how normal and imperfect we will be, and that no one's gonna give up because of that. Well, things are easier said than done. After the first months of our relationship, it's kinda depressing to get hurt because we're fighting. It's like I'm suddenly awake from a fairy tale dream.
Of course, no one in their right minds would want to fight with anyone they hold dear. I don't want us getting angry because it's frustrating and depressing at the same time. It's making me say painful things I'll regret later on. And as much as we are in love, we don't want arguments turning into a wall between us.
We seldom fight. And when we do, we don't leave it hanging before bedtime. This isn't how I handle misunderstandings, especially when I think I'm not at fault. But when you're in love, the relationship matters more than who's to blame. When you're in love, you don't wanna sleep with an unsettled argument. And when you're deeply in love, it doesn't matter who's right or wrong.
Sincere apologies are sometimes enough to stop the fight. Sometimes it also takes a little sweetness to shift the mood. For instance, I'm not talking because I didn't like what my boyfriend did; he'd act so romantically like he's courting me all over again. It's not a thing he does to cover up for his mistake. It's just to easen up the mood so we could calmly talk about what happened.
I never liked fighting with him. But since it's unavoidable, there's no other way to enjoy our relationship more by enjoying the aftermaths of every argument. Settling an argument gives us the feeling of achievement. It's our reward for working out this relationship without separating. Fights are both pleasure and pain because you don't want your beliefs being tested by your relationship, but you learn a lot from it.
So if we fight every now and then, I can't say I'm happy, but I'm not sad either. As long as these fights do not cause physical and emotional harm, I believe these are gonna make us a healthy couple who's normally going through some difficulties in life.
Finding him is not an easy journey, so does maintaining my relationship with him. We both vowed to never let our fights ruin our love for each other, but instead let our disputes strengthen our faith in this God-given relationship. So I don't care if the honeymoon stage is over, because we're on our way to something bigger and more wonderful than the first months of our relationship, which is FOREVER.
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There are a million ways to have peaceful fights. No shouting. No blaming. And no retelling each other's past mistakes. Many people are incapable of resolving arguments calmly. They always end up shouting at each other, saying bad and painful words, and sometimes physically hurting each other. This is absolutely depressing to witness. Remember, if your partner gives you the right to get mad at him/her because he/she is at fault, that right doesn't give you the power to disrespect him/her out of anger. Always keep the tone down, never emphasize that the entire fight is solely his/her fault, and (when resolved) never bring that up again.
