Two days ago, we celebrated our first monthsary since
we got back together.
Indeed, the days are passing by so quickly that I didn’t realize we’ve reached
our first month. I wanted to write about what happened that night, but I was
too tired to stare at a bright laptop screen and type. But today’s a great day
since I have nothing to do, and I thought this is a great time to write down
everything that happened two days ago. So here it goes.
It’s
been a month, and I’m finally believing it’s all happening. That we’re on
again, and it feels so much different now. In terms of how we express our love
to each other, nothing has changed. But then there’s something about us that
completely changed, and it feels so good that I don’t care how it happened. I
just wanted it to continue and last forever. Then I realized, we’ve grown up
when we’re apart, and that’s how our relationship worked out. I don’t know how
to say this; it’s like we broke up and then we thought we’re trying to be good
for someone else. But it’s not the real reason why we’re doing what we’re doing
that time we were separated. It’s not God’s will that we changed because of
someone else. It’s His plan to bring us people we can learn from, and get back
together again because we’re finally mature to continue this relationship. Do
you get my point? We needed other people—apart from ourselves—to realize that
we’re doing it wrong.
And
that’s none of our business now. Times like these make me try to know what’s
going on in full details; but it’s beyond my capacity to know absolutely
everything. I can’t, and I never will. God makes things happen, and I should
just let Him be. But do you understand what I’m trying to express? I’m not
saying that it’s what exactly happened; but I’m trying to make ourselves feel
good about everything. I just thought it’s my job to tell you how glad I am
that of all the people I met and the plans I made for myself, we still ended up
with each other. Of the millions of people in the world, I would have met
thousands of them. Hundreds of them are men, and I could have fallen in love
with a few of them. But it was always you. Only
you. Can you imagine how big the world is, and I only have you? I even had
you twice. Now, I can’t imagine the world without you despite the many people I
can have. That’s ultimately awesome; God is truly great.
To
get away from such heavy thoughts up there, I want you to know that these
letters are not to impress youor make you feel loved. I don’t sugar coat when I
write.I don’t write 100% positive letters all the time. This is to let you know
that I’m more honest when I write—not that I’m less honest in person. I just
don’t get to say these things because I’m not verbose about it. When it comes
to love, it’s better that I write it down, and I believe that you know it very
well. I’m speechless more often; my mind goes blank when I should be
responding. It only goes to work again when I’m alone and in front of the
laptop. So, you’re lucky you are the receiver of my sincere letters. More than
that, I’m luckier that I get to write such letters because you drive me crazy
about you.
Talking
about craziness, I admit that after all this time, I’m still deeply in love
with you. I’m physically attracted to you; I’m emotionally attached to you; and I’m
mentally connected to you. I don’t literally go crazy anymore, like I can’t be
controlled. But I still get that feeling that I’m addicted to you (in a very mature manner).
Addicted, as in I think about you all the time; I’m highly excited hours before
we meet; my cheeks are flaming red when we’re talking over the phone; and (this
time I’m uncontrollable) I can’t help myself but hug you tightly and hold your
hands infinitely till we go home. I miss you every day. I miss you even when
you’re around. I miss your entire presence and the things I love about you:
- Your brown eyes. They’re the finest eyes I’ve looked into.
- How simple you are. The way you dress, walkand talk is perfect enough. You’re not trying to be someone else because you are being you;
- And that’s the third thing I love about you—you are true to yourself.
- How responsible and disciplined you are.
- Your humility.
- Being a gentleman.
- Your respect in women.
- Your belief in God(and it shows!).
- Your efforts.
- And all the things you’re willing to do for me.
So…..
I finally came to that part where I can’t add anything else. Of course, there’ll
be more of this any time soon.
I’m
going to end this with an endless thanks to you, my love. You are my favorite
person now and then. Keep making me happy. Don’t stop inspiring me. Love me even more each day. Stay with me for
the rest of your life. Marry me. Let me be the last woman to capture your
heart. Just let me love you forever. I’ll do everything to let you know that
I’m only yours and I love you so much. You’re my everything, my whole world,
and my whole life. You have my heart. Don’t break it, baby. I won’t break
yours. I’ll make you stay forever with me. Together we’ll survive this tough
life because I’ll never leave you. You’re mine, okay? I love you!
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